Follow My Heart or My Head?

Sunday, 24th March 2019

I had such a good sleep. It’s so awesome to sleep in on a vacation!! Oh, and then I remember Javier. I’m so scared to check my phone. What if he didn’t reply me at all? Oh well! After lazing in bed for awhile, I plucked up my courage to look at my phone.

He sent me a message shortly after I slept. Then he sent me a few other messages late at night saying he missed me!! He said he missed me..

He said he was gonna come to Kyoto today but there was no follow-up on that though. Is he coming or not? It was already 11am. If he really means it when he said he is coming to meet me, wouldn’t he set a time, an approximate time at least? That’s what I would do. He is probably just saying that he is coming to be nice.. I told him he doesn’t need to come to Kyoto if he doesn’t want to. I’m totally cool with it. Thought I would just relief him so he wouldn’t feel bad.

He got very concerned and confused. He said he wants to call me to talk. By then, I was already crying my eyes out. It hurts so bad.. I felt like I was going through a breakup. I know it sounds ridiculous to most people considering we only met for few days. But we really connected on a deep level and I know I would never have this feeling or experience with anyone else.

I told him I’m crying and I can’t talk. He called me a few times. I finally calmed down and called him. He explained to me that he wants to see me so bad, he felt like there is something beautiful between us and the apartment felt so empty without me. He also told me that he was definitely gonna come see me but he was waiting for a lady to come pick up his sofa. Even though I was gonna leave the next day to Singapore but he just wants to at least spend all the time with me he can so we can have more memories together.

I was crying so bad. & he asked me to tell him how I felt. We started baring our hearts out and telling each other our feelings for each other. We both felt that something amazing between us. We don’t know how or where this relationship would head to but we want to spend all the time we can together. I felt so much better now that I know he feels the same way I do.

I looked at the calendar on my phone, my work starts on 1st April 2019. So technically I don’t need to be home before that. I had a reckless idea to fly home one week later so I can spend the rest of the time with him. It’s crazy I know.. but with all my heart, I felt like that was the right thing to do. I don’t want to have any regrets or what ifs. Even if this doesn’t work out, I know it would be a time of my life that I would cherish forever.

For now, I just want to love him. And I booked a flight very quickly while I was on the phone with him. Hahaha. So quickly that I didn’t even realise it was an one-stop flight.

Whilst we were on the phone, his door bell rang. It was the lady to pick up the couch! Wow, it’s like all stars aligned for us. He hung up and said he would be on the way to Kyoto now after he is settled with the couch.

And.. everything just seems to be rainbow and sunshine again! I feel so happy, he makes me so happy. C: